Saturday, February 27, 2010

current mood: kick asses...

i never regretted anything in my life because i believe everything in this world happen for a reason.

but i dont know why theres tis one tiny issue ripping my heart for quite sum time...

until at one point, i juz wished...i would never have met you, know you, befriends wit you, letting you in my heart...

the vengeful regrets smothering my emotional soul...

i am revengeful

and once u rip my heart into pieces, theres no way im lettin u heal the pain. even ur presence makes me sick.

dont ask me why coz ive been questioning my dark personality my whole life.

i knew ur intention was pure and sincere, i knew u werent to b blame but ur mistakes was too much for this heart to bare and forgive...

till now, my cage of hatred are fill with two specific persons. im nt sure this is final...suprisingly, i tink ur on the way there..

the end

Friday, February 26, 2010

FAMILY-day

i juz had a great sportesky tyme family daying at the female sport centre!!!

sygnya dia xdew tadi...haih~

ANYHOW, i tot they werent gonna support us but as the tyme reach 9 to 10 am, the stadium starts to flow with people~ yipeee!! (>0<)n

(=_=) (dah nantok n x tawu nak tulis pe)

ermm...overall review was okay despite the hot weather and rmi xder sbb maulidur rasul holiday~ thx everyone yg support...it means a lot to us...thank you~ it means a lot to me as well sbb dah lamer x put on sweat..hohoho...tis body really need to workout more~

p/s: sumone strucks me with tis statement 'ahhh~ rs cm cuty. i balik on wednesday and lepak umah and dh rs cm hari ahad but OH! bru hari jumaat! holiday gilerrr!!

me: (=_=") (nak menangis sgt okayyy dgr dier ckp cmtueeeee....NAK BALIKK JUGAKKKk!!!!)

-the end...kroohkroohhkrooohh`

Thursday, February 25, 2010

hime-sock

ok...homesick teramat skrg...

x kire la ader klas ke xder...(bkn da insaf ke skip class ni?)

I HAVE TO BALIK UMAH AFTR CRIT!!! (>0<)O

okok...relax...erm...aftr culture hari selasa drive balik..

eh jaap..

rabu ader woking drawing...

demdemdemdemdemmdemdmemmm...

klau cmtu...aftr crit jugak balik umah, balik sini balik hari selasa...yes yess...

YESSs!!

(^-^)v mommy yah~ wait for me~ muahx!

the end

GLEE BEST PLZ! (tajuk ni xder kene mengena dgn post kali ni)

ok...today nak insaf...

dun wanna go ponteng my unggas lg...dah straight 2 kali x pegi but doesnt count the total absence lg...huhuhu...okok..mira kena serious dgn attendance skrg...

dah la i dun go do my work kt studio, if x pegi clas lg my social life will be zero and limited kt bilik jer kan? no good, buddy~

so tis morning i force my lazy bump to wake up n pegi unggas and again i force my lazy lazy bump pegi bs even tho my focus was 360 degree terpesong from the whiteboard...but its a progress kan? haha XD good job MIRA (my own personal little compliment) >:p

oh, igt nak balik this weekend but i hav to prepare for my POSTPONE crit on monday...haih~ my early plan was goin out so well, demam2, sakit2 pon force diri prepare crit and dah plan nak celebrate maulidur rasul dgn my family

but end up it ws postponed to next monday and guess wat? other studio's were brought to the next friday. SO NOT FAIR!!!! (>0<)O

'dun go compare with other studios. if nak postpone next friday, TUKAR STUDIO'

guess wat? ive longed to change but ur da one who rejected my sincere request...andsdgsu STOP MIRA!!!!!! berdosa giler ckp mcm tu...okok tarik balik...tarik balik!! ><

wu..wu..wu...its juz feel so good to blame others when ur in misery...

makin lama makin bnyk dugaan ni...(--__--")

okok lets put aside yg buruk and chant good news instead...

oh yeah! yesterday we had our parenting presentation and we were presenting and acting at da same tyme n it ws whole lot of fun! and im happy most of them like it. at least it cheers up the lame vibe...next tyme were gonna do acting presentation lg yer korunk? *wink2 kt ina yg n yah* (^0-)d

and here sum best picture i snap ms BS td (naseb baek x ponteng tis tyme). we went to the rooftop oberving the CHWP (chill water pipe) if im nt mistaken a...bak guwe kata td...360 degree fokus lari...tetiber jer smgat biler bro ajak naek rooftop (mmg typical student btol)





p/s: daun ni kutip atas kete ham...she park below tis tree...cantik kan? huhuhu (^-^)v i love the texture, the twin repetition and the color...masyallah..ciptaan Tuhan... (n n)

the end

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

(=_=) 9876543210

no no no mira

tis is so wrong

no no mira

wats wrong wit u?

stop it

-the end-

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

gitaa-ra


how did i fell in love with guitars?

well, the first tyme i saw tis dude playing was in the year 2006...

at tht point, he opens my eyes to punk rock musics through acoustical guitar slapping...

he introduce me to the world of expressing feelings through hard slamming...

the feeling of satisfaction and relief...

the vicious steel string killer, aching my fingers, gave me tht total satisfaction...

the reason y i never intend to change my strings...i juz love the pain...everytime i looked at my numb, wrecked fingers, it shows a lot of sacrifices and effort...it shows my determination...my passion, my love towards music...

(ok...i wil stop now...some may tink im crazee up to tis point)

the end

Monday, February 22, 2010

evi is my nickname...

tell me, people....

what is life without a hobby?

the answer is easy....

BORING!!!!!!!

(>0<)p

-the end-

Sunday, February 21, 2010

miWWa taskiWWah

okie...nak rehatkan mind kejap aftr ve been working out my design for hours~! (>0<)o

ehem...we start our blog with al fatihah..(n n)

ermm... ok...u knoe wat, recently...mdm A (bukan nama sebenar) once asked me.

'u all smua spoilt. Every weekend balik. Cuty jer balik. balik balik BALIK...i dont kno bout u la coz ive been studying overseas my whole uni life but bro A (bukan nama sebenar) dlu blaja kat UIThahua (bukan nama U sebenar) sanggup stay university ms cuty umum juz to settle up his design...u guys so be like him...then ull be able to design good buildings'

ha...ok..listen carefully...

i was wondering...benda ni smua kejayaan duniawi...kenapa kiter kena work so hard smpi neglect our responsibility as apart of a family?

we only die once and nanti when we jump to a point of real working hours PLUS our own family marriage nk settle...dyu tink by tht time, its possible to spend as much tyme as we have now dgn our parents?

i dont tink so...

to me, this is all bout know how to BALANCE up ur life (promote design concept jap kat cni) :p

i do not agree we are labelled as 'spoilt' when we took even the tiniest opportunity to balik and spend tyme with our family...

i dont tink it is sumthin to be proud of when u sacrifice those only chances u hav to be close to ur love ones with a bunch of worldly success...

i totally do not agree! (>0<)O

so, i hav discovered the best way is to not waste ur valuable tyme facebooking, bloggin (perli diri sndiri)...instead, u cn settle up ur design work without havin to sacrifice ur weekends n holiday in the studio...

the things is...i hav to admit...people waste so much tyme doin unnecessary things which makes the necessary so hard to achieved thus affects ur personal responsibility...

klau kurangkan aktiviti x berfaedah tu sikit sikit..insyallah...masa untuk luang bersama keluarga dan rakan2 tu sentiasa ada...INSYALLAH! (cheewah!)

SO...

the moral here:

1. time is precious...

2. family first... (of coz u cnt jeopardy the islamic pyramid in heart whereas Allah, Rasul SAW, parents, ummah, and success) 'even here stated tht success shud be put at the end of the heart...its obvious how ridiculous it is to sacrifice everythin on top merely to succeed...

but in the end, wat matters is how well ur soul is cherished with love...not material wealth and titles...

b(^-^)d yipeeEe! selesai sudah mira bertaskirah...

akhiri dgn tasbih kifarah n surah al asr

THE END!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

ignore me...im talking to myself...

omg...wats wrong wit me...asik nangis jer...since when mira lembik cmni, hah? since when?! *ketuk pale sendiri*...semalam nangis sambil design. ..hari ni nangis sambil makan nasi mommy masakkan... kelmarin nangis sambil terbaring atas katil...nangis nangis nangis jewwww!!! (>0<)O jangan mengada ngada bole x, mira?! hum...maybe sbb jiwa rox ni dh lama sgt control macho, tahan sedih...eventually, it'll break apart n burst out. but why now??? whyyy!!?? now is the time i really need that secret strenght! bukannya breakin up lyke tis!!! mira kuat plz!!! kuat okayy!!! i kno deep inside ur such a strong loaded women!! tis is so not u to cry like a baby for days..! wake up now and start to work hard n put more effort to it!!! since when do you tink bout stress too much? dah dah dah!!! x payh pikir daaahh!!! *hug myself*....kuat smgat plz....nangis puas2 for da last tyme...pasni be strong kay dear....dah dah...shhh...*tepuk2 bahu mira*.....ur a good, strong gurl...uve been through worst than this...kuat yer....the end

Friday, February 19, 2010

pelik 2

tadi kan...

mira mandi sambil makan gula2 hacks...

mulut rasa mint hacks yg menusuk tekak...

tapi hidong bawu sabun...

impuls x tawu nak smpikan ape kat otak

pelik~

p/s: semalam mimpi pasal beruk dgn mdm aida (=_=)> *haish*

-the end-


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

\(^-^)/

ive been at downtrum stake...

pressured with work, assignments, family and friends...

and now im sick with fever, throatach, dizziness, cough...

i was breaking apart...

i forgotten bout my birthday...

i wsnt even in the mood to celebrate...

however,

all those wishes, presents and gifts...

the pure evidence of love and care...

had turn my disastrous life around...

oh my~ i shud be total grateful to be surround by such good friends and family...

and i donno how to express how much i appreciate them...

thank you all~

\(^-^)/

p/s: mission x nk bukak FB= FAIL!!!

the end



Monday, February 15, 2010

punish myself~!!! (>0<)O


i am punishing myself...

from now on...

no more facebook...no more....

for a WEEK!!

a WEEk! (>0<)O

yess......

i cn do tis...

its not tht hard, mira...

its for ur own good...

p/s: good luck mira!

-the end-

Saturday, February 13, 2010

a blooming wonders

people...they have different personality...thats where variety comes from...when there is no variety in a social crowd...life wud be so BORING...

so...meeting different types of people is a true journey of venturing their character...

some might be acceptable...n others vice versa...

so..we cannot argue with the fact tht sum people are acting beyong our beliefs and educations...

not everything has to be inhaled n welcoming...

basically, this is a NORMAL situation...

i can always say 'nope...i juz don agree with how you think, HOWEVER, im accepting u for who u r...

the question is...is it juz it?

agree with people juz becoz i belief its their personality, they were raise differently, educate from different social background..? the end?

now i wonder....second thots blooming my head...

if we put aside the character, personality, background, bal bla bla bla bla behind...and replace the RATIONAL act a our first priority....its gonna be a lot of argument occurring...

at tis point, people wud respond 'you dun understand'....

how come people acted off the line juz merely becoz they were affected with these life factors?

well...obviously, the mind n psycology play the major part here...therefore, when their psycology hav fixed in tht paticular creation....nothing...NOTHING can change their act...

thus!!, the most important is to change their understanding...

yesss....

tht is why, when there r no mutual undertanding...conflicts happens....

well, turn on to my chapter....

im havin trouble with a cici's way of thinking... (cici: not his/her real name)

but i cnt force cici to see what i see...

but im trying hard to make cici understand tht what cici is doin is so negtively annoying and wrong!!!

and the way cici manipulated the obvious fact makin it look like cici was innocent n whaat cici was doin ws actually NORMAL irritates me so MUCH!!!

INSTEAD!

cici was pointing the blame on my face and said i ws being unacceptable and complicated?

okok...mira...relax...

what im trying to say here...is that...sometimes i am so grateful tht ive face a lot of flaws in the world. even so, there r many of them faces below my stage...

but, it has taught me one important things in life...

is to see the beauty in a mess...

you love seeing beautiful things becoz u never face the beast...and when u do...the beauty is juz a worthless decoration that blinded ur eyes from the true reality of the world...

and watching u being so ignorant and unconcious...annoys me...

im serious...

what can i do to make u see, my dear? you can see yet ur acting like a blind person with fantasizing vision...

again...

you ANNOYS me

p/s: a message for myself: be good, mira...even if ur not perfect..try to get close to it as it is a worth dieing effort... and makin such lame life factors excuses r so pathethic n it doesnt gave u the gold ticket for you to acted so WRONG and ABUSIVE.. what is WRONG...is WRONG..! no arguments...

-the end-

v(>0<)V im not dreamin am i? FINALLY!

omg...OMG!!!!

TIS IS NOT A DREAM!!!!

YES YESSS YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!



p/s: as u cn see the picture...its a perfect acoustic sound, best tone n sharpness, curvey cut...senang nak press higher fret, big size body, free gibson pic and very expensive timber look!!!

...yup...its MY NEW GUITAR!!!!! (>0<)/

FINALLYYYyyy!!!!

WOHoOOoo!!! I LOVE HERR!!!

*muah muah muahhh!!!*<---continue muah-ing

-the end-

Friday, February 12, 2010

karrrrrrmaaaaa

ok...sedih sgt...

first things first...i juz remmbr i left my cute speaker kt studio!!! omg! i juz hope sgt2 org x curi PUH LEZZZ!!! (T0T)n

i ws too sleepy yesterday...my brainy brain wasnt working up so well~

n i NEVER left my room keys...NEVERRRR!!!!

and bole plak i left it on friday and guess wat?

ina, ham n yang smua dah balik!

and by the time i wanted to go back n pack my stuff...

BANG!!!

i cnt msk my own f***ing ROOM!

i juz slide down my t squre n balik umah empty handed...

(lucky i brought my laptop...bole smbg buat culture)

by the time i reach home...guess WHAT?!

i left my laptop's battery!!!

cnt do my f***ing ASIGNMENTS!!!

without the room key, i cnt go back early to settle my work!

this is KARMA PEOPLE, KARMAAA!!!!

curse myself x buat pepe for my pre crit! curse me...!!

dont even make me start bout pre crit...it was totally dissapointing...madam was dissapointed with me...i dissapoint her....i dissapoint MYSELF!

argh! wats wrong with me?! (>0<)n

okok mira...tarik nafasss...(-__-)...

lepass...(-0-)...i juz have to relax....

relax...

(-_-)

(-_T)

(T-T)

<(T0T)> waaaa!! tensennya!!!




-aftr hd hd a gud cry-





im feeling much MUCH better now...juz gotta be bck on track n work EXTRA hard with EXTRA effort!! yesss!! i cn do tis!!

(>0<)/ SEMESTER 2/ YEAR 2!!! HEAR TIS!! YOU CANT KILL MEEE!!!!!

p/s: crying doesnt mean ur givin up, sumtimes it means u wanna let those negative feelings out and start a new fresh spirit~ (^-^)n so, sumtimes its better to let sumone cry...coz im sure afterward, he/she wud feel replenished n became stronger....hihihi~

-the end-

Thursday, February 11, 2010

confession~

dear bloggie...

hurm..how do i say tis...

MIRA TAK SENTUH HER F******* DESIGN LANGSUNGGGGGG!!!!!!

i kno its crazy but im so not in the mood!!!

everyday i blogged, fb, watch GLEE (im totally crazy with tis episodes currently), play my guitar, chat with him, chillin out mcm xder mender jer weyh pre crit tmrow...ow wait! (tgk jam)..its tody~

DANG! (>0<)O

omgomgomgomgomgggGggg!!!!!!

bole x esok g mintak MC sbb sbb errr....sbb...sakit usus? tak pown sbb ada eye bag? ker sbb rs pelik, berpeluh bnyk semcm kebelkgn ni...<---sebnrnya sbb skrg tgh global warming....tak pon...ARghh!!

sumpah mcm takder kesedaran sgt skrg....

(--___--")

cn someone plz pinch me real hard....? here here...(tjk kat pipi)

-the enrghhhhHHHhhhh!!!!<--kena cobit

(*_<)n

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

SPEAK errrrrr....

OMG!!!!

remember my previous post i talk to you about tis speaker-comel-bulat-mine-mine-MINE which i borrowed from ahnaf???

it was actually his rumate punya n he bought during pc fair n UNFORTUNATELY....ok...hear tis...

the speaker doesnt work on his laptop...

it DOESNT work!

OMG!!! u kno wat tht means???

it meansss...(smbil buat gaya hirup udara)

'i smell...OPPORTUNITY!!!'

so! chit chot chet with ahnaf n he called his fwen...

then i talked to him on the fon..

rumete-ahnap-slang-kelantan-pekat -nasib-baik-ak-paham said

'tu la pasal...ak da bli pastu try pakai x dpt gune pown...hilang cmtu jer duit aku!!

me: klau cmtu, jual jer la kat ak pasal kat laptop ak bole jer...! PLUS! ak suke giler speaker kaw okey~~ sgt COMEL!!! plz plz plz jual kat ak!!! (>0<)O *begging*

mamat kelntan: amek ar...esok ak kasi kat ahnap sruh pass kt kaw...ak x gune lg speaker tu so kaw nak baya braper?

me: hurm...original price?

mamat kelantan: **

me: **? (kurgkan harga)

mamat kelantan: AMEK LA!! JUAL JUAL!

me: YIPEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

THE
speaker-comel-bulat-mine-mine-MINE is TRULY mine mine MINE!!!

im so happy~ (^-^)/

the end...oh! anothr thing~

yesterdy i ws surprised with myself!

i had major stomachaching, i ws dizzy and sweatin and i vomit all my wednesday food...n it happens every first day pms...n seriously...yesterday ws the WORST!!! (>0<)O

i tink i shud get medical checkups...seriously....even tho i hate hospital but tis is excruciatingly painful to bare...i ws bitting my hands all the tyme to fight the pain...

p/s: hurm...i always end up havin all these weird medical problems....

-TRULY the end-

bye bye

juz cme back from klia...

oyeen was faking a smile n dare herself not to burst into even a drop of tears...

she hugged me less than a second...

i was madly crying...

hurm..im gonna miss her a LOT!

p/s: im so so very extremely tired...

-the end-

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

leave me alone...


okay...

to be honest...

i havent slept well these days...

each and every night before, i felt restless, worrying bout sumthin that im not even sure what, my heart is beating faster as if i was running, my senses seems to working out extra hard than before...

when i close by eyes, i hear a lot of things...things tht was extreme low pitch, it shudnt have had distracted my head...but it did! i get so distracted with all these sounds which before ws a lullaby to me...desnt affect my sleep a bit!!

my heat senses tells me of a present...i felt like someone is looking at me...watching me sleeping...the 'thing' is either close to my compartment entrance or beside my bed...i cnt stop feeling so DISTURBED all the tyme!!! (>0<)O

i wanna get enuff sleep!!! puh-LEZZZ!!!'

CASE 1

and day before yesterday, one of my roomates told me this...

miss Y: mira,hari tu kan...i remember i close and locked ur window aftr reading ur monkey post, i ws worrid they might attacked me while i ws here...but after a while, i went to your room, and guess what? .......ur window was wide open.....(0_o)

me: (---__---) hmmm...

CASE 2 thre were 2 guests in my rum on tht moment...

miss C: bla bla bla...hahaha..bla bla...hAAAaa!! (0_0)!!

me: asal?!

miss C: *staring at the window*...'err...nuthin...must be my imagination'

me: (--___--) hmmm

sumthin went wrong ere, people....sumthing is juz not right... when things like tis happen back then...it usually works with this... i COMMUNICATE yess...i juz ned to know why me?

if its becoz my rum is in a mess...*looking around*...yea..kinda...huhuu...

'zaappp zuuppp swwoooshhh swiiishhh!!!!'

OK PEOPLE!! ALL CLEAN NOW !!! (^0^)/~

ok..now...juz ned to add a little quranic reciting for protection..

when uncertain things like this occur, we tend to head down n tink of God...

p/s: juz hope things will be back to normal again...

'leave me alone'

the end

Monday, February 8, 2010

oyeen (^-T)

my best friend is goin NZ tis wednesday....TIS WEDNESDAY!!!!

OMG!!!

even tho i havent settle my design YET...!!

even tho theres a ****ing pre crit on friday!!!

even tho i hav to submit my working drawing!!!

even tho i havent started sketching my cultural assignment!!

even tho i have to go to klia all by myself...!!! (which i never been thre independently...huu haa huu...xper mira..u cn do it...if sesat ke aper...bole jer tanya org....relaxxx)

even after i knew the price nk naik rail cost almost rm80 pegi balik klia!!!

even so...my dear friend...~

i'll do it for you...

no matter wat!!! (>0<)O

becoz i wanna be the person u called as friend to wave u gudbye...

n pray for ur safety n success while ur in thre...

with the local ppl where we used to cal them as 'foreigners' here...

hurm...im gonna miss you...so so much...

do take care of urself...



p/s: *grab my panic heart beat hopin it'll slow down*...'everythings gonna b ok....everythin is under control...u ned to see oyeen before she leaves malaysia....'

-the end-

pelik...

semalam, sedang saya syok mengurut/cuci muker dgn pencuci muker...

sambil tu saya juga tgh kunyah karipap sardin dlm mulut...

hidong saya bau sabun...

tapi mulut saya rasa sardin karipap...

deria impuls saya x tawu nak smpikn aper kat otak...

seriusly, satu perasaan baru bg saya...

dan ia tersangat la pelik...

korg kena try...mmg pelik...mcm satu perasaan baru yg undescribable~

(--__--")

-the end-

Saturday, February 6, 2010

papa ku pulang dr kota, papa ku belikan kereta...

last nite i ws havin my dinner kt pelita, klcc area.

My family loved to get our tummy fill with pelita's yummiest mamak's menu. Pelita mmg best...~!!!

b(>0<)d i assure u to go thre n rs those roti nan n chapati...bla bla...smua sedap... plus!

yesterday, the fooball fans were pillin up the restaurant...tgk liverpool lawan aperntah...mmg happening la the place...!!

oh! im nt gonna bable bout mamak food or wutsoeva...

i wanna share u guys bout cars...

my dad hates huge car...he's Agoraphobia; which means fear of huge wide space...thts why he never plans to own a huge BMW, MERC, bla bla bla for himself and hes totally comfortable with his small black aero kembara...

however, the problem starts here...when we all starts to grow up....

kak long: ishhh!!! tepi la NGAH!!!
me: kak long la ke tepii!!! smpitt laaa!!! (>0<)O
hafiz: zzZZzzz (-__-)

since my dad cnt seem to overcome his fear, my mom instead gt herself a new 8 seats car, sacrifice her ten years old black soolid perdana. n(T-T ) 'bye bye my baby'

and when we got ourselve inside the car, it was comfortable indeed... my sister sat at the back, im with my brother comfortably laying on our backs, conquering the 3 seats....no more fights...everyones happy...

but i felt sumthin juz went missing....

the fights n argue n stories were turned to a silent bond...everyone had their own chillin space, we tend to do or own stuff...

however...last nite...a ruff nite indeed, but its one of the most bonding moments in my life...!

we went dinner with my DAD's CAR and it was chaotic!!! my legs were on my brother's lap, my sister had to sit half front of the seat and my brother forced himself to 'kepit' and his hands were on my sister...it was dem sempit!!!

we all grown bigger than before especially my brother here...sumthin went wrong with his pituatary which controls his growth i guess...LOLz!!

however, it makes us bond together....we were so close and we COMMUNICATE~ i ws singing old japanese songs with my sister, my brother were pushing us aside n turn on the radio n said 'bloody japan! hidop indie!!', we were screamin! and suddenly my brother farted...n we all were laughing n open our windows...and i ws dancing to one song n my brother tickles me n i cobit my brother's hairy tummy and my sister was hugging my back and sleeping n later on...we end up hugging each other n sleeping...

'awwww'

(i bet by tht time, my mom n dad were lettin out a huge relief sigh becoz we were so bisng n keco)

mesra habess~

p/s: i love my siblings a lot even tho we were totally different...! \(^0^)/

-the end-

Friday, February 5, 2010

bnyk sgt nak citer~!!! bnyk sgt gamba!!

its the happiest day of my LIFE!!! (^-^)/

im so happy!!!

soooo happyyyyy!!!

*hug myself*

okok...xley seronok sgt....nanti Tuhan taik balik...eh! cilap taRik balik!!

ehem ehem~

anyways, im so glad for what had happen n i hope things goin up well in the future for *blank*

anyhow!!! (tuka topik), last nite i borrowed one of my buddy's speaker n i was sooooooo excited to use it!!! never own a speaker..(--__--)"



sbb yesterday me, ina, yg n ham plan nak tgk muvee 500 SUMMER together...so i go borrow one speaker from a friend n tryout kt my laptop n mmg jatuh cinta giler with the speaker!!!!!!!!...rs cm nak jer amek simpan kt blik pastu the next day ckp kat ahnap..(ops! kantoi)

me: ahnap...speaker tu hilang la...x tawu maner...ader toyol curi..

OH!! I WISHH!!! (>0<)>

anyhow...the next day

(T-T): gudbye speaker...tsk tsk

OW!pasal the movie..it was so uniquely define and characterised... the camera work everything sgt best and meaningful...even the setting is unusual from the normal phase...



even tho its a sad breakup story...however, they stil manage to end it so well and it makes me smile...makes US smile~ kan kan kan korunk? (^-^)/

and yesterday mommy ask me bout my birthdaay present...(--__-")

seriously people, mira sgt sux okaey~~~ x reti giler nak demand stuff from mommy n ayh...dr dulu lg...

when i got *A for my PMR, i juz asked them a new pencil box...the cool one for sure~ <--da rs cm gempak giler da my sister dpt violin for her PMR instead which cost like rm700?! i mean WT*!!!!
my brader plak dpt one set guitar electric n amp which again cost like RM1000++
giler pathethic weyh!! pencil box?! pfFff!!!!


itu la tahap kebodohan saya meminta hadiah...

but i usually like stuff tht im likely using it for the rest of my daily life~

ape pn...i dun really mind actly...coz im no materialistic kind...only specific things je yg i like to spend on a lot like clothes and bracelet and my music upgrading stuff. yg laen i cud wear or use it smpi la dah hujung nyawa...

example i hav so little collection of shoes, handbags, etc etc etc...seriously, gurls~ (>0<)O

oh! another hot topic to share... my rumates da start figurin out the price for desktop...diorg da eager sgt nak beli and to me its still to early...cuty semester ni pon bole lg beli...

even if u beli now, wat r u gonna do with it? ok..fine...its individual decision la nak beli bile kan? i dun wanna judge...

cth la my dearest fren ina ni nak bli coz she wanted to play game street fighter

(okk..fine...ni ak hentam je but i tink it has sumthin to do with fightin+war+tembk2) and the sims...so there u see...she has her reason...

since i cnt figue out my justification just YET, so i might possibly let it to rest for a while~ yup2...

tp kan...if i demand present mahal2 now...n its like les than a month or so..nak demand desktop lg...

kesian giler my parents... <(Y-Y ) *x sanggup*

shud i juz beli desktop as my birthday pwesent?

im no life loaded, people... its a lot of money to invest...

its like beribu kot!! sum may juz jentik jari n pop! klua 10 ribu...but na'ah...not for me...

so i gotta tink hard....tink wisely...jgn susakan mak bapak...dosa besar, mira...

<(>-<)> *tinking*

the end

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

ill never forget tis moment... (^-^)>


dup dap dup dap dup dap

huh?

wats happenin to me?

p/s: shocked + excited + happy + touched

-the end-

Monday, February 1, 2010

im a loser in love...so i quit...for now...(close the book) no more love chapters for mira~



dear diary,

i had been thinkin a lot lately bout myself, my love life... (huuUUU). So far, to be honest, i have always been a total loser. i dont know how to actually love a person, i dont kno my own feelings, i dont know i dont know and i juz dont know!!!!! during my cinta monyet tymes, everythin seems to be FAKE. i am faking myself allll the tyme juz to fit in with other couple. thts...obviously...is not true love...its no fun at all people!!

and when i tink im truly in love with a person instead...ive got ditched...pijak pijak pijakkkk matiii!!!im not ashame to say this..but i feel like i hav wasted my energy, time, sacrifice, feelings and all those thought bout how is he was juz a shreds of dust....poof!!! blown away by the wind...how pathetic...

it wasnt the first time...it happen so many, and i have reached my limits...being in love is juz so restless and tiring. u tend to get worrid all the tyme, tinkin bout him all the tyme and when he did even a small tiny mistake, u tend to get all emotional....thts juz....sux....

totally sux...

i love watchin my frens being so happy wit their love ones and i juz hav to accept the fact tht i havent find mine juz YET...

did i put any hope on tis?

nope...never...ive done with all this lovey dovey feelings...its juz excruciatingly painful...i admit people, i am so very delicate deep inside...and when they broke my heart...it really does breakin me apart...and its very tiring to face it again... i could cried every day every night juz to heal the pain...n it never works with the tear...so i move to music...and i started to tink more bout myself n keepin myself busy...busy busy busy...not to forget, my frens r always thre to help me...

a peson once said' dont fall in love, fall off a bridge instead...coz it hurt LESS..'

which to me is so very true...

but then...

thats when the fear comes...

da fear of putting too much hope on people, fear of loving a person with my heart and soul, fear to get involve with relationship,...

i might be all alone, playing my guitar, compose sum songs, edit pictures, bloggin, watch movie while others were happy doodling with their love ones, might not get those opportunity to hav a lovey dovey boyfriend or special dates or even received flowers and gifts...

but the important part is tht im happy...

no ones there to break me apart...coz its juz me, myself, friends and family who r always there to support me from behind...

p/s: im juz not ready to let my heart suffers in pain...for now...lets juz say im happy with my life...

not an anti-lover but juz expressin my feelin from my very own experience...

-the end-

only one person understand....ME~ ^^

okey...i juz got slapped twice...

tis tyme i am totally awaken from my so-called dream...

thx buddy...

dun have to wait for a week...

im done...over...

i hav finally move on and i am extremely happy with my state...

never been better!! (^0^)d

i was being too emotional bout it, i dun even realize tht i hav already stop hanging on to it but

curse me for even start tinkin bout it (stoopid mira), i gave myself this imaginary pathetic scenes

which im totally NOT!

p/s: my previous post has nuthin to do with anyone...im juz arguing wit myself...

~the end~

nuthin...juz a bunch of heartout trash~

THTS IT!!!!

I GIV U ONE WEEK!!

ONE WEEK TO TINK BOUT IT!!!

ONE F******* WEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKk!!!!!!!

AND IF UR STILL SO QUIETTT,

IM GONNA MOVEEEE ONNNNNNN!!

MOVEEEEE ONNNN AS IF TOTALLY MOVE ONNNNN!!!!!

p/s: yup...im still waitin... *fingers tapping*

-the end-