the magical word~

i knew i was tied up by my bad relationship histories and i knew becoz of tht as well, i couldnt open up my heart nemore...

i wsnt gonna blame anyone...

it was me

my one and only heart...

i wasnt strong enough...

and what happen last night had really opens up my old racked story...

that has been suffering within me long ago, even aftr i had face new love in my life, it was still there, waiting to be healed...

thts why, my love didnt work out so well,

it was tht old racked bruises and pain...

but i thanks to you

you had waken me up from my darkest dreams and suffers...i knew i shudnt have hang u on the rope of my weaken heart. it wasnt ur fault. u were never the fault. being confused is not sumthing u can predict. things might have move too fast for ya...im sorry for dragging u so hard... im sory...

and now, i shud no longer blame u for ur mistakes, and mistakes are just apart of human and i just gotta move on~

and be happy~

p/s: to be honest, i really miss you coz ur a good friend to me~ (^-^)> finally i can look at you without feelin pain and sadness nemore~ for i knew, u never had the intention to hurt me, and i knew, i shudnt have tied you for ur humanly mistakes.

~the end~

lu jangan nak cabar gua, gua melayu tulen beb!

(You bet me for writing a real Bahasa Melayu for my next post~ so, here goes...)



malam ini, hati laraku membelai belai kesunyian arus dorakan bunyi rentetan hujan sayup sayup kedengaran di luar jendela kamarku...

iya...hati bingitku membentak bentak memohon ketenangan sejagat akibat daripada kekalahan yang merunsingkan jiwa antara Kumpulan Brazil dan Belanda.

Sungguh tidak ku sangka, keputusan terakhir sebegitu yang akan ku ratapi di kaca televisyen sederhana besar yang terpampang jelas di dataran ruang tamuku.

Geram. geram sungguh. Tapi apakan daya. Aku hanya mampu mengeluarkan kata-kata amarah seolah olah didengari oleh pemain Brazil yang seperti sudah kabur arah tujuan mereka dibawa arus tekanan dan harapan orang ramai. mereka kelihatan sudah hilang tumpuan terhadap permainannya kali ini.

Sudahlah. apakan daya, segala kejadian itu pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya. dan hikmah yang mereka aksasikan kali ini adalah supaya mereka lebih bersedia menghadapi pemain seperti Belanda di masa akan datang. Insyallah~!

Walaupun malam ini bermelodikan renyaian hujan dingin. Cukup enak dodoiannya, rangsangan deras ke alam mimpi. Namun, apa yang terjadi, telah membiuskan deriaku. Mataku tidak lagi berat dihimpap syaitan. Penat lelah tubuhku terkujur meratap penulisan yang seolah olah tiada titik noktah penamatnya...

titik noktah bergantikan pantun dua rangkap. pantun melayu yang telah lama ku lupakan, kini kembali menghiasi taman minda muda ini. Sekian~

kekecewaan itu hanya sementara,
kejayaan pasti akan dikecapi jua.

Selamat malam sahabat handaiku,
amacam? hebat tak ak tulis dlm Bahasa Melayu?

-tammat-

:p

the book of tomorrow

Do you guys read?

well its really good when u read and for me, i love reading!! (^0^)v

i'll get to learn new bombastic vocabz, widen my self imaginations and my understanding bout the whole aspects of life!!!

and it even develop my spelling capabilities and are prone to good at writing as well.

im not saying tht im totally good at writing but i have always hope to be a good writer.

why?

well...its becoz of me...

I have problems expressing myself especially in terms of being defensive especially a face to face communication. I realized that sometimes, im lack in details sections like my tone, volume, intonation and expression.

People alwys misinterpret the real message im delivering. and its heartaching to see people gettin hurt from my blurry words which they took it badly...

therefore, when i started to write... i realize tht what ive wrote was the exact message i wanted to deliver. and im happy when i write!! (^0^)/ yayyy!!!

ANYWAYS!!! (jaohnya ak bebel)

im reading this book titled

'The Book of tomorrow' written by Cecelia Ahern.

its a very light type of story where you can juz sit, relax and enjoy Tamara Goodwin's life after the death of her father.... My dad shooked his head several times watching me laughing by myself journeying through the book...HAHA~ sorry ayah, im juz facing an exxagerative imagination and if ur really into the story, its freakin KELAKAR owkey~~!!!

tomorrow im gonna go attend the archidex event and hope to bump into familiar faces yaw~!!

p/s: im sorry. yes the guitar is urs...its not mine. it was ur birthday present. i ws merely juz borrowin it from u... i hope u dun mind sharing it wit me...huhuhu! XD

the end