a simple message~

Hmm, I cnt sleep...
I kno I woke up at 4am this morning flip thru history notes…DANG! Da test were postpone til next week
Hv clas straight til 2pm
Decide to sleep
Cnt sleep…I happen to swallow a mug of anti-sleep poisons…
Wastin time watchin movie instead…
AARRrrrGhhhh!!!
Basicly, I shud b sleepy right now…
But im not…
Becoz im too upset to sleep…
Im FUCKING upset!!!!!
‘im always right?’
Is it true?
Never in a world..i tink…im always right!
I kno sumtimes im wrong n I am not ashamed to say it…
I am not tht coward to say sorry….naturally…I always wil…
But…sumone once told me
Never tink of wether its his/her faults..…juz say that magical word…SORRY
For da sake of saving the relationship
If u really do luv da relationship
Then, juz say it!
Its fucking simple, mira~
I kno…I kno….but for heaven sake! Y is tis magic word so hrd to say it out loud?…my throat got’n dried n crackin. N d mind keeps on remix-ing (so so so sorry so so sorry so..o..o…o..oh yeah..sorry) my fingers cnt stop doin da invisible writing on d study table s..o…r….r…y….
Its juz a lame smally tiny meany matter high school drama conflict fight
Which is to me…it ws nuthing….
I dun entertain such dramas…I mean, come on!
But..if I acted tht way…will it change anything…
It’ll definitely make things worst…
Our relationship, of course…
Mira, mira…jus flushed ur ego away and say sorry…
Like I said b4…ur intention strongly is to save ur relationship
I really love *
I really do…
I giv up…I said sorry…
Well, tis wasn’t da first time…
When it happens a lot…u tend to feel tired…
All this while..i hav to put my head down n apologies…
Is it too much if i want you to apologies tis time?...bcoz I hav my pride too
I feel like ur steppin on me all da time…doin da chicken dance
Crushing me so hard til I bleed…
Yet, I crawl myself to you and hug ur skinny legs n…
say ‘sorry’…
Imagine tis repeatedly happen to u ….
Cn u stand?
Its unbearable….
To tell ya da truth, my heart is crying hell out of it everytime you did tis to me
But…I prefer to keep d feelings inside rather than crying it out
I used to cry a long time ago…
But I wasn’t entertain…
I juz mke myself look weak
Therefore, I pretended to b strong yet inside I ws like a bubble…
It looks like a crystal glass…but a tiny tip touch can actually blow it away…in thin air
Its a suffering feelings…
If ur really are my fren…
I juz hope..you’d stop
Plz…ur hurting me…
Plz….
Dun make me hate u for tis
Coz I really love n care for u…
Plz…..