one day i was thinkin.....

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! sedih gilerrr! totally!!!!! i saw tis lil boy singing
n it was like AAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhh~ (=0=) merdu, lunak, angelic giler suara dier...
AND AND AND!!!!!

(-0~)p n wat, mira??

(T-T) i cried every single time da song was played...~~

swwwooooshhhh.... (bunyi daun berterbangan)

(T0T) BUT ITS TRUE!!!!

so, i decided to share it wit some1...of course da closest one was my
family....so i make a list...(in my mind):

1) my brother= X (-0-) hes in asrama, remember?
2) my sister= X (=0=) shes busy wit 'stuff' in gombak
3) my dad= XXXXXX (NO NO, i can truly imagine hes respond would b like)
(-_-) hmmm...ok... (>0<) NOOOO!!!! ok2 next!
4) my mom= hmm, maybe she'll b sportin enuff to hear..lgpon, i share
a lot of stuff wit her...YAY! (decided!)

me: (>0<) mommy!! kak ngah dgr lagu ni n i cry every single time...u shld hear it too
budak tuhh...AMAZING GILERRRR!!! JOM JOM DENGAR!!!
mommy: yela2...im comin! cepat tao, 'gerak khas' dh nak stat! (-0-) huh! budak nih!

(while da video was played, as expected, i was cryin hell, at 1 point i tried to
look at mommy's expression but decided nt to spoil da mood)

as the song ends...guess wat happen...?
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(T0T) SHE LAUGH AT ME!!!!!! SHE EVEN ACT CRYING! (really overly done)!!!
i was PISSED!!! Even if she didnt felt anythin, at least...u kno
wat im tryin to say...!!!

i cried at tht moment becoz i was totaly dissapointed wit her but she tot i was still
crying for dat video so she stil continue doin da act which hurt me a LOT!...

me: (T0T) if u really hate da viedo, mommy, juz say u hate it! dnt hav to hurt me
like tis!
mommy: im soory..ppl dnt seem to have da same emotion n opinion... mayb sbb kak ngah
art student kot, sbb to emotional..AHAHHA (continue laughin)..sorry2, kan
mommy lawyer...eheheh..kla, mommy nak sambg tgk 'gerak khas' BYE!!

tap tap tap tap tap (raining)<
(T-T) wuu....wuu...wu...(thinkin,thinkin,thinkin REAL HARD)

"O"tink*

i remember sumthin...i had once felt da same way but different situation.

juz a brief flash back:

i LOVE tis guy (hes an artist)
he might look like a gurl but i knew a lot bout him
n watch thousand of his video, hes totally a GUY!
becoz u c i wont fell to a guy who looks n act like a gurl...hehe (=-=)wuteva!

so, i love 2 share it with my frenz n guess wat they said?

'mcm PONDAN jerr!'

(>0<) HHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHH!!!!!!! (heart bleeding)

u see here:

1. i like sumthin
2. like to share wit sum1 i close to
3. being rejected n get harsh comments
4. end up crying n decided nt to share

CONCLUSION: the problem is...me...(-_-) i cnt accept negative comments, but its
nt like i force them to like wat i like (?)...its juz tht, i hope they
could respond in a softer way...consider my feelings at least...
AHHH (>-<) im hopin too much...dnt i?

o(>0<)o WELL THEN!!! I JUZ HAV TO BE STRONGER!!!! GUD LUCK, MIRAA!!!!!!