dreammmsssss~ ahhh! forget it!

i tink im facing a teenage-to-adult age convert crisis... (>0<)>
why now do i ave to start thinking bout MY life...
da other half of me keep saying...'hey, mira! wake up! its too late for you to change'
da other half, however..'y dyu have to be such paranoid wit wat ppl's gonna tink, juz do wat u feel like doin, dude!'

my greatest fear..unfortunately...if i ever turn my bck on wat ppl's gonna tink...i'd might be doin it wrongly and maybe...juz maybe...im gonna regret it....forever...
its like...my heart feels happy doodly blink2*...but im gonna b surrounded by this negative charges energy... killing me softly...on the outside...gently..on the inside as well...

wats so happy doodly bout gettin wat u want with a dieing heart n soul?
i tink im starting to understand wat SACRIFICE really means...
maybe dreams are juz ought to be DREAMS....

ohh!! i miss my childhood moments...every dream seems to be real...
and i treasure it as if it really does exist...!
givin me such wonderful imaginative feelings....
now i see....perfectly...there r 2 types of dream in tis world
one is the one you'll achieved...and the other is juz to satisfy ur empty soul, widen ur imagination and again...its juz a dream...

well2, im gonna giv these 2 dream types a name; (-0-)l
1. reality dreams
2. imaginary dreams

i stil tink tht i am able to mix these 2 dreams up and create one perfect dream typo which cn attain such powerful sweetness cndy in my heart and at da same moment, its rasional, general mentality acceptance. (reality)....

people nowadays, they stick to the relity dreams coz they've given up with the imaginary dreams...they let the bud of nonsenseness and impossible achievements grow abruptly in their minds...they missed the fun! (>0<)n they murder their own golden ticket...!!!! MURDERER!!!! (>0<)n

wake up, people!!!
YOU SHUD..psst* psst*!!! huh?(mira...u've gone too far...bck to ur crisis)
oh, yea...ANYWAYS...everytime, ive been tinking bout doin 'it'...an image of this person pulled me back to reality...and i kno i cnt resist the fact tht any sort of stoopid crazy irrelevant stuff i did...is gonna splatted on her face even without me wanting it to...its juz gonna splat plat plattttt and SPLLATTTTT!!! and if everythin i did is gonna effect the other person...i cannot be selfish and ignore the natural chain!!!

hmmm...well...the final word is: i tink, by giv awy my dreams no matter wether its the reality/ imaginary typo, if its for the sake to nurture this person, i'll give it up....i will SACRIFICE...even if its painful...however, i realize the methodological fact is...im actually saving another person's heart n soul...and it is WORTH SACRIFICING!

teh den