mah sleeping hour is jackjocking, mah meal time is swishosing, everything seems to scattered here n there...
i juz gotta organize it back into place...! (>0<)O anyways, the time struck at 1 am and iium wifi seems to get all activted n i dun wanna miss the once in a blue moon opportunity to harass the online pages in mah room at this freaky sleeping hour!!! wehuuU!!!! wiiiiii~~~
wellllll, ive been thinking a lot lately, rationally of coz...bout my relationship. it didnt work out so well. if u guys ask me why? no pointing faults here...sumtimes, things just dont go as well as we plan....
its hard when it comes to deciding sumthing which eventually will, without hesitation, affect other people's heart n soul. Im trying so very hard to make the consequences as minor and safe as posibble coz ive been through the part as well...before...n it hurts a lot...trust me...and im sure some of u guys out there hav felt it b4....kan?
nothing much occur...no huge fights...fatal arguments...nothing...but as the wind passes by, my feelings and personal instinct tells me to folow my heart and my heart says it all...., i cnt force myself to cntinue doin things im nt really into it...i dont know why at first...but later on...i knew i wasnt quite ready for a serious relationship...im happy the way i am.... standing on my own feet without being own by anyone...if ur talkin bout love...i have lots of friends and family to adore (and ur one of them...^^...yess kaw laa...u kno who u r)
im totally aware tht any decision i make, will nt juz reflect my own very soul...but also the other. Therefore, im trying very hard to be fair for both of us...you wont feel happy knowing im nt following the ryhtm of our relationship and i wont feel happy as well knowin im nt quite ready to be serious...
meaning...i dun joke around wit tis...i take it very seriously...u might say im being shallow bla bla bla masih jaoh...muder lagi...but i dont deal wit things tht way...i look farrrr to the future...n havin unfortunate histories exxagerating my cautiousness... (>_<)>
relax. think bout it. consider the upcoming consequences. be fair to both sides. decide. be happy. no regrets
the end
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