weird?

mmm...

is it weird klau mira a bit over dlm bab fulfilling people's expectations?

is it abnormal biler mira emo and paranoid even the smallest things people pointed out utterly unsatisfied about my work?

am i being ungrateful for behaving in such?

my explanation wud be....

i acted that way because i want everything i do to be in perfect shape! im a born perfectionist...!!!(highlight! in certain aspects)

so...sumtimes, mira a bit over react biler org nt quite happy with my work (even tiny bit of dissapointment area)...becoz that means 'its not enough'...and that means 'i have to do more'...and that means 'i sux'

i feel shit ass....

let see....hypothetical situation...

u do housework all day and suddenly ur mom came back home and she screams at u 'y are the chairs all dusty??!!!!'

u kno wat i mean?

rs mcm 'dem!!! cmne ak bole x nmpk habuk kat kosi satu tuhhh??? kosi tuuu jeee kowtt!! arghh!!! i suxxxx!!!!'

yess...mira mmg cmni....

so...today, i have learn my lesson.

1. respect other's opinion
2. its for ur own future good...dun take it negatively
3. be open minded and positive about everything...hanging urself with subjective comments arent gonna giv ya success...

mira x suke happy sgt on sumthing unless its totally muktamad...then ill do celebration...early satisfaction will only pushed u further down below....

and i have once put myself part of such behavior and when the muktamad stage came through, I wasnt entertain and its devastating experience....

cnfident sangat....sux....

p/s: kata2 utk diri sndiri

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