*sigh*
mira nak ckp sumthin to all yg suke pendam perasaan...
plz dun be...it kills ya...
mira slalu pendam2 perasaan dr dulu lagi and now, im becoming insane. smua benda nak marah2 and x puas hati. rs mcm terlambat giler sbb bru skrg nak memarah n ungkit but hell, i cant stand it anymore...
K (bkn nama sebenar) might not perasan smua ni tpi dier x penah treat me with respect which i totally deserve one. And mira sabar sabar and sabar jer. becoz mira assume cara dier layan mira smua tu is becoz shes older and mira kena telan jer.
But lama2, things arent gettin any better. And both of us dah reach adulthood, my brain dah actively function and dah tawu erti respect and hak diri nak bersuara...mira dah stat hilang saba...
sumtimes benda yg sgt kecik pon K nak besar2 kan and tak bole langsung nak tolerate. (dier x sedar ke smua org slalu dipaksa tolerate dgn cara dier walhal dier sndiri x penah nak bertoleransi dgn cara org laen)...
biler K dah slalu sgt pijak mira, mira dah hilang respect dkt dier. kdg2, cara dier layan tu is wayyyy rudeness and i dont know how malukan saudara sndiri and aib kan dier depan org ramai is funny?
maybe im juz lack at her rate of humor...but hell, klau org keliling pown buat muker akward kt lawak kaw, apa kejadah?
i might not use the word 'paksa' but i did it becoz i love u and mira x smpi hati nak tolak klau dier ajak layan her videos, movies, songs, stuff, stories...even most of em mira x paham lgsg, but i was always there for K...
have u ever been there for me, K? movie/music x payah mention, K always put all those aside and aftr a year or so possibilities utk dia x tgk lgsg sgt tinggi....sedihkan? despite K's eagerness sharing all those interest she have, she have none for others...how selfish is tht?
ok fine...K malas nak layan minat mira, but then, u cudnt even cnsider nak jga perasaan mira ms mira tgh bercerita. Ur half heart respond and expression-less aka im bored listening to u, bitch...always breaks my heart...always!
and now, cnt u see...im becoming someone else with u...i feel like a total failure when im with u..as a person...nuthin i said interest u..mira rs mira better off jadi invinsible and be myself around someone yg appreciate me more.
Biar la Tuhan jer yg balas cara K layan mira selama ni. Mungkin satu hari nanti, K akan tawu apa makna respect, sharing, tolerate and care.
sorry for being such a bitch...
p/s: sumtimes ur a family but most of the time, ur a manipulative selfish bitch...
-the end-
3 comments:
woaah! easy there tiger. i so know who ur talking about...and i can imagine the whole situation with u and K. haha!
ok since u dah cannot take it, why dont u just one day if K pisses u off...instead of taking it all in, lepas je kat dia? lepas habis2an and say wtv u wanna say and perang mulut cam gila babeng punya. after that u might cry and rasa guilty n all but it feel seriously best n lega sgt2...
ina pernah one day sbb tak tahan out of nowehere i was shouting from bawah tangga n my 'K' was upstairs n we were perang mulut cam gila. that time serious rasa takut gila but i was crying at the same time. kalau boleh nak lari naik tangga n slap punch her je...if ooonnllyyy im older! serious i felt nk belasah je muka dia. phew ok..so yeah, im not asking u to set a date to gaduh or wtv..im just saying if that moment where K pisses u off, just let it go and express your emotions. Because that'll b the only chance u have...
after that mesti dah ok balik. it might take awhile tho.
mmmm...tq lemon...tsk tsk :'(
aku agak setuju dgn sydneylemon.. bukan lah nak suh bgado, tp elok je luahkan terus tahap gile2 punye puas.. (oke aku xde K pon tp nak gak komen kan? hoho)
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