n it was like AAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhh~ (=0=) merdu, lunak, angelic giler suara dier...
AND AND AND!!!!!
(-0~)p n wat, mira??
(T-T) i cried every single time da song was played...~~
swwwooooshhhh.... (bunyi daun berterbangan)
(T0T) BUT ITS TRUE!!!!
so, i decided to share it wit some1...of course da closest one was my
family....so i make a list...(in my mind):
1) my brother= X (-0-) hes in asrama, remember?
2) my sister= X (=0=) shes busy wit 'stuff' in gombak
3) my dad= XXXXXX (NO NO, i can truly imagine hes respond would b like)
(-_-) hmmm...ok... (>0<) NOOOO!!!! ok2 next!
4) my mom= hmm, maybe she'll b sportin enuff to hear..lgpon, i share
a lot of stuff wit her...YAY! (decided!)
me: (>0<) mommy!! kak ngah dgr lagu ni n i cry every single time...u shld hear it too
budak tuhh...AMAZING GILERRRR!!! JOM JOM DENGAR!!!
mommy: yela2...im comin! cepat tao, 'gerak khas' dh nak stat! (-0-) huh! budak nih!
(while da video was played, as expected, i was cryin hell, at 1 point i tried to
look at mommy's expression but decided nt to spoil da mood)
as the song ends...guess wat happen...?
(T0T) SHE LAUGH AT ME!!!!!! SHE EVEN ACT CRYING! (really overly done)!!!
i was PISSED!!! Even if she didnt felt anythin, at least...u kno
wat im tryin to say...!!!
i cried at tht moment becoz i was totaly dissapointed wit her but she tot i was still
crying for dat video so she stil continue doin da act which hurt me a LOT!...
me: (T0T) if u really hate da viedo, mommy, juz say u hate it! dnt hav to hurt me
mommy: im soory..ppl dnt seem to have da same emotion n opinion... mayb sbb kak ngah
art student kot, sbb to emotional..AHAHHA (continue laughin)..sorry2, kan
mommy lawyer...eheheh..kla, mommy nak sambg tgk 'gerak khas' BYE!!
tap tap tap tap tap (raining)<
(T-T) wuu....wuu...wu...(thinkin,thinkin,thinkin REAL HARD)
i remember sumthin...i had once felt da same way but different situation.
juz a brief flash back:
i LOVE tis guy (hes an artist)
he might look like a gurl but i knew a lot bout him
n watch thousand of his video, hes totally a GUY!
becoz u c i wont fell to a guy who looks n act like a gurl...hehe (=-=)wuteva!
so, i love 2 share it with my frenz n guess wat they said?
'mcm PONDAN jerr!'
(>0<) HHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHH!!!!!!! (heart bleeding)
u see here:
1. i like sumthin
2. like to share wit sum1 i close to
3. being rejected n get harsh comments
4. end up crying n decided nt to share
CONCLUSION: the problem is...me...(-_-) i cnt accept negative comments, but its
nt like i force them to like wat i like (?)...its juz tht, i hope they
could respond in a softer way...consider my feelings at least...
AHHH (>-<) im hopin too much...dnt i?
o(>0<)o WELL THEN!!! I JUZ HAV TO BE STRONGER!!!! GUD LUCK, MIRAA!!!!!!